when i look at my body, i know my perfect body is under there. hiding. drowning. suffocating under rolls and layers of bubbly fat.
i wish i could take a pair of scissors and trim away the extra fat around my middle, around my thighs, around my arms, around my cheeks.
i wish i could mold my body like clay. i could rip off the excess and smooth down the rough edges. shape every curve, outline every rib, sharpen the jawline.
i might not be able to do those things, but i can reach my perfect body another way.
I saw this girl at the airport. We were queuing to go through the bag/security checks. The first thing I noticed? Her thighs. They didn’t touch. She was wearing gym shorts that were clearly too big for her, practically hanging off her hips.
My eyes trailed down her legs. Her socks (they had cute little aliens on them) were barely staying up on her ankles. She wore some pink Adidas Superstars. A good choice. Similar to mine. Of course, I look no where near as good in them.
I go back up to look at the top half of her body. She had an orange Kanken, with a Bunny Plushie hanging out of it. She was wearing an oversized jacket, rolled up to show her delicate wrists.
Then her face. Her sharp jawline, prominent cheek bones, all complimented by her short, curly pink hair.
She looked over to me and smiled. I smiled back, looking away and blushing. I suppose I must have been staring.
I walked past her on the plane. She took up no space on the seat. She was able to sit with her legs crossed up on the seat. With room still available. She looked so delicate. She had only eaten about 3 bites of her airport meal, but there were about 4 empty bottles of water, neatly stacked on the small table.
You could tell she was in control. She got there by hard work and perseverance.
Basics/Tips -drink at least 2.5l of water a day (!!!) -put a straw in the glass so you can subconsciously drink easier -cold water burns more calories -exercise obviously -butterfly strech will help you develop a thigh gap -you dont wanna gain a lot of muscle so do only cardio -take vitamins so your hair and nails stay perfect -for a quick weightloss keep under 500cals -cut your food in tiny pieces -or color your plate a dark color -dont drink smoothies, they’ll make you less full then when you’re actually eating + blending takes away some vitamins -if you dont count calories what are you even doing -black coffee -dark chocolate in case you’re dizzy or crave it -eat small amount of any sugar filled fruit if you’re dizzy or leight headed -GREEN TEA GREEN TEA GREEN TEA -or any detox tea -white tea helps not to absorb carbs so drink it after a fast -weigh in in the morning -exercise before you eat anything that way you wont be losing cals but actual fat -NEVER DRINK SODA -theres so many unnecessary calories in it -bye pasta, rice, potatoes, red meat and candy -literally go to the mall and pick up the cutest outfits for skinny girls -cold showers/baths burn calories -wear thight clothes -never tell anyone about it -drink warm water before and cold water after you eat
Hunger pains/Binge eating
-drink warm water -nap -sugar free gum -STAY OUT OF THE KITCHEN -seriously. I lock myself in the bathroom when I feel like binging -you just got food and you’re struggling no to eat it? -give it to you siblings -go for a walk, go run, go to friends house -just get out of the house -watch ‘My 600lb Life’ or ‘Skins’ -brush your teeth, pluck your eyebrows, take a long bath, shave -dream about being skinny -literally its the best thing -lay in your bed,play some music and imagine how amazing world would be if you were skinny -search tag #thinspo on my blog and look at all the pretty pictures –
eat/chew on ice -mints -when you feel a binge coming on , or are already in the middle of one take 2 tsp of raw apple cider vinegar and put it in a shot glass of water and drink it. It literally just stops your cravings
Motivation -so many cute outfits you’ve always wanted to wear -your eyes literally get bigger as you lose weight -being lifted by a significant other -sitting in someone’s lap and not feeling gross -everyone being jealous of you -finally getting noticed -the simplest outfits look good on you -like baggy shirt and leggins -your hipbones sticking out -being someone’s thinspo -your legs look long even if they’re not -being th smallest in your friend group -CROP TOPS -high wasted jeans and shorts -people whispering about how skinny you’ve gotten -guys talking about asking you out -getting random compliments from strangers about your petite figure
(I can first hang promise you all of these actually happen)